The Leap

Hey guys.

I really want to give you all the details about the contract I signed yesterday.
First, I'm going to explain the video I made tonight.  

So, as you all know, I am currently trying to find my way after graduation.

  I got all of this great advice from amazingly intelligent people, and I wrote it all down and I read and reread all of the notes of names and places they told me to look.  

For some reason, I keep holding myself back from actually making those phone calls. 

To put it bluntly, I'm scared to make those calls.

I'm scared to put myself in a vulnerable position.  I'm scared to get shut down... several times.  I'm scared that I will never find my place.  I'm scared that I'm not good enough, smart enough, passionate enough... I'm scared I won't get there.  I'm just scared.

To my friends who graduated before me and already have these great full-time jobs... I gotta hand it to ya, I am so proud of you guys.

It takes a lot of courage to make that leap.  

I see how brave you all are, and the only thought in my head is, "It has to be my turn next."

The contract I signed is for a beta testing job. It can be done from home and allows me to get paid to sit on my laptop all day, which I do anyways.  The company is called FilmFolk, and I'm actually not at liberty to tell you much more than that. (I know right?  Crazy.)

But I am really excited!  It makes me feel like I will have one of those jobs where you get to test video games all day, but instead of video games, it's something I can actually do.

Thank goodness because I can't even play Mario Cart to save my life.

So there you have it everyone! It's a job.

An experience.

A responsibility.

 A step towards learning how to make that leap into the working world.
I'm starting to get that:

You never know where those steps in the dark will lead you,
you just have to have the courage to find out.
I hope that will help you understand the thought behind my video. 

Hope you enjoy it!